I Had A Day Of Reflection Today. I Attended The Funeral Of My Foster Brother Loyal Foote. As I Sat There Listening To The Songs Chosen I Found My Mind Wander Over The Years I Had Known Loyal.
Loyal Came To Our Home With His Brother Mark During A Difficult Period Of Time For These Two Brothers. Their Appearance Came At A Time Our Family Had It's Revolving Door Of Children Coming And Going. Most Were Going With The Exception Of Both Mark And Loyal. I Believed They Lived In Our Home For Five Years. My Parents Were Foster Parents For The State Of Illinois.
I'm Not Sure The Exact Number Of Children Who Came Through That Revolving Door For Various Reasons. One Thing Was For Certain, Each Child Could Feel Safe And Loved.
As Adults We Tend To Focus On Our Immediate Families. We Involve Ourselves In Our Childrens Lives, Then Our Grandchildrens Lives. Time Seems To Travel So Much Faster As You Grow Older. As A Youngster I Never Thought I Would Ever Get "Old Enough". When I Finally Reached That Age The Measurement of Time Seemed To Double In Speed.
They Say Confessions Are Good For The Soul. I Don't Have A Confession To Make So To Speak But I Have Been Troubled For Quite Some Time.
A Few Years Back Loyal Gave Me His E-Mail Address. I Was Rather Shocked By What I Had Read. It Read Devilsoul Then Some Numbers After That Which I Believe Was His Zip Code For Lafayette Indiana. Long Story Short, I Had A Problem With It. I Decided Not To Share His Address With My Mother. I Know That Seems Selfish But I Had A Real Hang Up About This Name On His Yahoo Mail Account. Why Didn't I Just Ask Him Why He Chose To Use This Name. He Was Raised In A Christian Home. Was I Wrong In Passing Judgement Before Knowing The Reason He Chose To Use This Name? Loyal Had Been Known To Be A Rebel Of Sorts. This Will Be My Lasting Impression Of My Brother Loyal. It Doesn't Seem Fair When Your Mind Is Blinded By Evil And You Either Choose To Fight It Or You Ignore It. In My Case I Chose To Ignore It. Today Looking Back I Would Have To Say I Made A Bad Decision. Unfortunatly Looking Back Is All I Can Do For My Brother Loyal. There Will Be No Future Moments Of Time To Share. If I Could Do It All Over Again I Would Have Atleast Called Him On It And Loyal Was The Kind Of Person Who Would Be Honest In What He Told You. If In Fact Loyal Had Given His Soul To The Devil I Would Think We Would Have Seen Evil. His Son Gage Is Now An Angel In God's Loving Arms. I Pray For My Brothers Soul. May God Have Mercy On His Soul.
Today's Lesson Learned Was Not To Take Life For Granted. In The Blink Of An Eye Your Life Will Be Changed For Ever. Live Today As If It Is Your Last. It Could Be......
Just Call Me Mac.......
Hmmm Yea wrong judgement,, Took me many years to actually see this. Amazing what a bored person can Find on Google an typing there name. That Sn (screen name) was just like a handle. Nothing more nothing less. Yes my father had his rebel years, But we all get some off the wall Sn's These days. Mine is Jooky. That also has a many meanings as to LIE/Joke etc. Anyways Very Nicely wrote. I lost them in a few yr period. Its amazing how things just happen in Blinks of an Eye. Anyways nice Blog.. Sincerely Loyal Foote Jr.
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