One month Later.......

By The Time You Read This One Month Has Passed Since My Son Bobby Passed Away.
I Will Be So Happy To See This Month Gone Forever. Unfortunately I Must Wait A Couple More Days Before I Flip The Calendar To Welcome February.
So Many Times This Month I Had Wished It Were Summer. In The Warmer Months I Am So Busy Doing Things, It Allows Me To Focus Better.
Allow Me To Reflect On January 2011. Bobby Recently Passed Away In The Early Morning Hours Of December 29th, 2010. A Lot Of Events Have Been Just A Big Blur For Myself.
Bobby Passed Away In Florida. After The Police Investigation And The Autopsy, It Took More Than A Week To Get His Body Back Home In Danville Illinois. This Would Not Have Been Possible Without My Father, Harvey Miller. Bobby Had No Life Insurance. I Had No Idea The Expense Of A Funeral. At First, Our Thinking Was Cremation Because We Were Told It Would Be More Than 10,000.00. I Didn't Have That Kind Of Money. My Father Stepped Forward And Told Me He Would Do What He Could For Us. I Hope To Someday Re-pay Him.
At First His Idea Was To Have Bobby Buried Near My Sister Brenda. I Didn't Want That Because The Distance We Would Have To Travel To Visit Him. I Wanted Him To Be Somewhere Close. Some Place If Our Hearts Felt Empty, We Wouldn't Have Far To Go.
My Parents Called Us And Asked If We Would Like To See The Cemetery In Westville.
As We Rode Around In This Tiny Catholic Cemetery My Mother Reminded Me That Blake Visits Them On Occasions On His Bike. To Me That Was A No Brainer. We Will Place Bobby Near His Children's Homes. They Could Visit His Grave Site Whenever They Felt Like It.
January 2011 Brings A Lot Of Emotions. This Must Have Been The Saddest Birthdays For Both My Father And Sister. Their Birthdays Were Just Days Before Bobby's Funeral.
In Previous Blogs I Mentioned How Close Bobby And I Got This Past Summer. If I Had Known It Would Be Our Last Summer Together I Would Have Made It The Best Summer Ever.
Unfortunately Life Doesn't Work That Way.
My Advice For My Readers. Live Today As If There Is No Tomorrow. If You Truly Love Someone, TELL THEM! Why Is It So Hard For You To Say Those Three Little Words? Those Who Really Matter In Your Life Should Know What They Mean To You. I Have Never Been One To Say I Love You Until I Lost Bobby. I Never Got To Tell Bobby I Loved Him. I Never Got The Chance To Say Goodbye. There Will Be Other Deaths In Your Lifetime When You Don't Have The Chance To Say Goodbye. However, You Do Have The Chance To Tell Them You Love Them. Tell Them Today. Tell Them Tomorrow. Tell Them Every Time You See Them. Today May Be The Last Day You See Them. Don't Have Regrets. I Did, But I'm Going To Learn By It And Not Let It Happen Again.
I Don't Care If You Say It Back To Me. I Figure That's Your Issue And Not Mine.
Recently, A Link To Bobby's Music Video Created By My Niece Tabitha Was Added To This Blog Site. She Did A Wonderful Thing For Us. At Times Like These Most People Don't Know What To Say Or Do. They Just Do What They Do Best. You Can Always Come To This Site When You Feel Like Watching This Music Video Of Bobby.
There Will Many Hurdles In The Future As Far As Dealing With Bobby's Death. Today Is A Hurdle Because It Marks One Month Since He Passed Away.
My Last Note In This Blog Is I Really Don't Want To Bore People When I Write About My Son. If It Bothers You To Read It I Am Not Sorry. Writing My Thoughts Eases My Pain. Maybe I Will Get Back To Writing Like I Use To Someday. Yet Again, Maybe Not.